senioritis.

Dx: senioritis

It's true--I have senioritis. Yes, I may not be a senior, but the term "junioritis" just doesn't sound right. I realized that I've caught this inflammation (haha, -itis is a suffix which means "the inflammation of...") because I'm preparing to go to a new school, just like a high school senior getting ready to go off to college. Unlike high school seniors, the rest of the quarter doesn't seem pointless--it's going to be a critical time to see if I can really step it up and reach the goals that I had mentioned before.

There's a twist though: what if I don't get in? If I don't get in, I'm going to take it as a sign that Nursing may not be where God wants me to be. Then...who knows what I'm going to do? Finish up pre-med prereqs, do Clinical Lab Science, wait a quarter to get accepted, or full time ministry and focus on getting CORE up and running.

Ahhhh. Loma Linda sent out their letters on Wednesday so now it's just time to wait anxiously for the mail to arrive. Just like I said--it's like high school over again when I was waiting for those acceptance/rejection letters to come. Hopefully it'll be like my UCSD turn out, not like my USC one. I felt so blue after that...

It's hard to believe that just one sheet of paper can hold your future on it.