trust.

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

In the Philippines, we were able to hand out small cards with our name, a verse, and our email on them. Usually many of the students would want us to sign their cards so we would leave a small message and our signature. I would write things like "Keep looking to Jesus," and "Only in Him will you find true happiness and perfect peace," but most of all, I would also write: "Trust in the Lord always!"

It's funny that now during this time, I'm having a hard time doing all the above, especially trusting in Him. Actually...it's not funny, more ironic, but it's such a bummer especially since 1 Cor. 9:14.

I'm praying that my faith and my trust in God will not waver, though the things that I would like to happen are not happening and most likely won't happen. When I saw something earlier, I felt a twinge of pain and closed my eyes and started saying to myself, "Trust in the Lord...He knows what's best...He has a better plan for you.." I've seen time and time again about how the Lord's plan is always the best plan, and yet even now, I'm still having trouble accepting it in this situation. Ahhhhhh.

The most I can do is just continue to pray and put all my trust in God. I prayed last night that the Lord may refine me through trials so that I will be able to stand for the troubles that are nearing quickly, and maybe this is another trial that I must go through. I must again go through something like this in order just to...learn to trust.

I have to remember my verse that I put on the cards too!:
"Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord." Psalms 27:14.