Testimony

"And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue. And the Lord said unto him, Who hath made man's mouth? or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the Lord? Now therefore go, and I will be with thy mouth, and teach thee what thou shalt say." Exodus 4:10-12 KJV

That promise to Moses was made real to me today.

I gave a testimony tonight at the Rancho Cucamonga revival and by the grace of God, it went really well! At first, I was so unprepared. I had known about this for two weeks, but I didn't start actually preparing until a couple hours before the service. I practiced in front of the mirror, but it didn't go so well. I was stuttering and I thought I didn't make sense. When I got to the place, I was so nervous! Especially when I saw the time breakdown: 15 minutes! Such a long time!

I started added notes to my notecard and marking the verses and the passages I wanted to mention. When the program began, I prayed a couple times. Finally it was my turn. I opened with talking about the black-out at school and how it was so awesome. Then I prayed, and after I tried to find my notecard, but I couldn't find it! So I decided to just try my best and let the Lord bless (haha, that rhymes).

The Lord truly blessed! I got many laughs and I felt so energetic. It wasn't how I usually speak; the Lord was truly speaking through me. After the program, I got many comments on about how funny and great the testimony was and how I was cute up there and everythanng. Haha. But all the glory goes to God! I truly could not have done this without Him! He was seriously the one speaking through me.

Happy Sabbath!

Swamped

It's only the end of the second week of school and already I am so tired!

Don't get me wrong, I really like being busy. It's helping a lot right now. But it's so crazyyyy.

I'm taking less units than last year (last year I was at an overload each quarter!) but I have less free time.

Check it:
Psychology MTRF 9 A.M.
A & P 1 MTRF 10 A.M.
A & P Lab T 3-6 P.M.
Spanish MW 3-4:40 P.M.
Rock Climbing W 8-9:50 A.M.
Organ R 2-3 P.M.
Piano M 2-3 P.M.

and then...
G. Bio Lab TA meetings M 5 P.M.
G. Bio Lab TA W 12-3 P.M.
plus time grading quizzes and notebooks (15)

also...
Bible studies TW 7-9 P.M.

and there are also other responsibilities involving orientation leader and ministry stuff..

It wouldn't be so bad IF I knew how to manage my time wisely. But of course I don't, so my sleeping habits are like how they were last year around second-third quarters.

It also wouldn't be so bad if I actually studied. I'm behind in reading for all classes! And now I'm getting behind in grading for lab. So much for getting straight A's.

I gotta buckle down. I always think and say that but it never actually happens. I should really do something about that.

Happily Never After

...is a movie title I thought appropriate for today. I saw it at Target and the title caught my eye. Apparently, it was also created by the ones who created Shrek and Shrek 2.

The work load keeps building up. By the end of the year, my hair will be streaked with strands of white.

I have no time to wallow (The wallow definition I'm using is from Gilmore Girls).

Life goes on even though I want to take an hour to climb into bed, curl up and cry. This blog itself is taking precious time that I'll never get back. Alas, moving on is a necessity for it's the only way I'll be able to keep on surviving.

Time to discard it all.

I wonder how long it'll take people to realize that my usual answer of a smile and "I'm okay," is all fake.

But no worries. I'm going to be okay.

Organization

It's amazing to me how well I can organize many things, like Bible studies and such, and how it impresses people, like Mike who now has called me "Mike's Little Helper," and yet I can't seem to organize my life.

I cannot seem to organize my thoughts, my time, my rooms, my closet, my desk, etc.

So sad.

It's 1:16 A.M. I need to sleep so I can keep up with Justin or whoever tomorrow on the track.