I move into my new dorm, Lindsay Hall, at Loma Linda tomorrow and I'm just about freaking out.
Before, I was so excited about the thought of finally going to Loma Linda! Whenever I visited, I would be so happy and think, "This is going to be my school!" But now...I am scared out of my mind. I've heard so many stories and I'm so afraid that I'm just going to fail again. I have so many goals, but I'm so scared that I'm not going to reach them and I'm just so so so scared. I'm scared for the classes, a little nervous about clinicals, and I just know that I don't have the right study habits to help me get the grades that I want. For example, I am NOT ready for Med Term! I have NOT studied for that test and I have to read 15 chapters! I am so scared that I've just been procrastinating with everything. I'm not happy right now and I'm just...scared. I'm not excited...and I've been eating a lot because I'm a stress eater (just wanted to add that in because I just realized it).
I have no focus, no goals...I just...am so afraid.
Fun fact, just to lighten things up: I found a strand of red hair on my head. Whee.
