google maps

I've never been a big fan of Geography. Sure, it was easy in high school and I got an A and everything, but to this day, I've never been good with maps. Two weeks ago at GYC, Jenny and I were standing in the cold for ten minutes in a Minneapolis neighborhood trying to find our starting point for our door-to-door evangelism. We walked all the way down one street in hopes that it would lead us to the starting point, but we went the wrong way! Today I had a sadder, more time-consuming experience.

I agreed to help Jeremy with mapping out a bunch of addresses on a Google map. I was confused for about twenty minutes, but I finally got the hang of it. We were working on a bunch of addresses, and in the middle of it, he notices that something happened and all of them were erased! Jeremy was pretty frustrated with it because he had worked on it for a long time but I stayed calm and tried to make him smile and de-frustrate him with icons that I thought would make him smile/laugh. I think it worked, and after that, we started up again. After reaching another half-way point, his computer froze and he signed off but I continued working. I finally got to the end of the list and was so relieved! I felt so accomplished because it was a really long list. I saved everything and clicked "Done" and went exploring on the map. I accidentally clicked a link and it brought me to a different page. I quickly pressed back and alas, our hard work was erased again.

I was so disappointed and sad.

When I called him up to tell him what happened, I actually had tears forming in my eyes.

Looking back on it now, a few hours later, it's a little humorous. I can't believe I shed a few tears for a map.

*sigh

Anyways. Tomorrow is New Year's Eve and I haven't done anything that I was supposed to do this break! This week, I need to really start working on: LLUSN application, recommendations, TEAS studying, my "Behold" Bible study research, my room...

Boo procrastination.

study to shew thyself approved unto God

grades.
they aren't the most important thing
but they are to a certain extent.

i thank the Lord so much
for bringing me through this past quarter
and softening my teachers' hearts
(especially my music teachers).

i just checked my grades
and they're the highest they've ever been
since i started college.
yaaaaaaaay.
no b's or below!

"Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." 2 Timothy 2:15

analogies

hand : palm :: internet : how i waste my time

elyssa is not equal to productive.

...if i were smarter, i would know more.
or maybe if i tried harder.
but you get the picture:
i'm so lazy right now.

study break

it hasn't been three full days since i've left la sierra, but i'm actually itching for something to study. that totally goes to show how confused i am: when at school, i absolutely despise studying, but now that i'm on break for three weeks, i feel like i need to study.

so tonight, i had some alone time. i curled up in my bed and read "the soul of a doctor," which is a compilation of essays by harvard medical students about their real experiences with patients. while i was reading, i really wanted my anatomy book so i could look up some of the terminology. i even was picturing the muscle model from the lab and started naming them: "rectus femoris, vastus lateralis, vastus medius, vastus intermedius, tensor fasciae latae...wait is that how you spell it? l-a-t-a-e? iliopsoas, pectineus..." and so on.

no i'm not a nerd. even though at this time, like always at the end of a quarter, i constantly attack the la sierra website, relentlessly logging in until my grades are all posted up so i can either rejoice or pout, i'm not a nerd. example: i can and should study for my teas exam, which i want to take in january, but i'm not. case closed.

i should be enjoying this break. i've been longing for this time when i don't have to study, work, practice, etc., but i actually just want to fast forward time to when i become a nursing student. even though i was totally afraid and overwhelmed at jonjon's llu nursing student testimonies, i'm yearning for that busyness, the hustle-and-bustle, the interaction with patients, and so on. i'm not looking forward to all the studying, but everything else seems fun. instead of being scared for allison and vanessa as they begin nursing school like i was on thursday night, i kind of really want to be going there with them next quarter...

practice makes music major

this evening, the department of music held their student chamber music concert. i attended because nikki was playing in the flute quintet and i like to come to her recitals and performances and stuff like a proud mama...but more like a proud roomie. (i didn't get to watch her perform because i had to leave but still...)

anyways, i was listening, observing, and admiring the musicians while they were playing, and it hit me: i could have been a music major. sure, anyone could be a music major if they know how to play an instrument or sing well, but seriously...i could have been a music major, if i practiced. i was listing the instruments that i've played in my head, and boy...if i really did spend much more time on them, i would have been so talented. haha.

but no really: i was a flutist, violinist, and percussionist, and i am a pianist and trying to learn how to become an organist. if i had just only practiced like i should have, who knows? i could have been one of the performers tonight.

practice makes perfect (and a music major.)