insights and more

This past week and weekend has been so busy! ASi Pacific Union Conference started on Thursday, Microbiology test on Friday, ASi Conference on Saturday, and Pre-Professional Conference today. And on top of that, my mom is sick and I'm starting to come down with something.

Anyways, here are some insights that I've received from this past weekend:

• Nelson quoted from Christian Service (I can't find the quote!) saying how if one was truly full of zeal, that person would never fall. Of course for many, that is not the case. But the Bible says in Proverbs 24:16 that "For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief." Even though we fall, the fact that we want to get up and ask Christ to raise us up is really something. There are many that fall, and just keep on falling, and never ask to be lifted up just because they enjoy what they've landed on.
• I shouldn't live for others. I shouldn't live for the praise of men and women, but for the praise of God. I've noticed many times in my life, I do soooo many things just to get people to like me, just so they can say nice things about me. That's nice and dandy and great to do things for people and have them like you, but that's not what my life's purpose should be based upon. I should do all things for God and if some don't like it, then so be it.
• I need to make a change in my life, in my study habits, etc. I need to figure out what and who are true priorities in my life. Also, I need to start focusing! I can't depend on the fact that there were times that I've studied the night before a test and have gotten a pretty decent grade. Auntie Cheeky and the panelists made that clear in the conference today. I need to take the time to truly focus. Even though what I'm learning may not be as important as an education in spiritual things, this will help me be a blessing to God and to others and I should do the best that I can in this world.

So yeah, just some stuff I thought about yesterday and today. By the way, I just want to commend Samantha for the great job that she did today at the Pre-Professional Conference! =]

all i can do

...is cry.

I didn't think I would cry, but after reading an email from a friend and while listening to "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz, the tears just started to fall down my cheek. They're still falling and are actually stinging my face because of my sunburns that I got this past weekend.

I guess everything has just accumulated into teardrops:
My mom's sick, Pastor Roxas has been diagnosed with colon cancer-
I'm so tired and stressed and behind in my schoolwork-
After several months, I'm still not over it-
I feel so alone-
I empathize with those who are hurting: Michelle's friend who lost her father and whose brother is sick, Michael and Jeremy's family, Kurt's grandfather--when is all the pain going to end?
I'm scared that nursing isn't for me-
It's been a year and I'm still not the girl that Christ wants me to be, and I feel like I'm slipping-

blaaaaah.
Hah, this may be too much for you [the reader]; I have crossed the line, over and past the norm of reciprocity, especially since I have no idea who reads this...

nursing or not

Instead of typing up my Microbiology lab report, I am here again pondering about what to do.

What am I doing in life?
I am the President of the Pre-Nursing club and I'm anxiously awaiting the response of Loma Linda University to my application, and yet I'm wondering if this my calling.

Friends tell me that I shouldn't have given up on Pre-Med and all that. They tell me that I'm smart enough to go to Med School and be a doctor, but am I really?

There are so many possibilities for me to do: become a health evangelist, teach nutrition/health at CORE (yes, I really want to! Let meeeeeee in 2 years, Mike and Shane!), be a teacher (either for Nursing school or Med school...depends on what I become), be a doctor, be a nurse (practitioner or anesthetist), be a physician's assistant, get a Master's in Public Health for Education/Nursing...

Whenever I see others question nursing and go back to school after they finish nursing to do another degree, it makes me doubt whether or not I made the right decision to become a nurse.

Lord, please guide meeeeeeeee.

too intense for spring

This quarter looked like it would be less busy than last quarter, but it turns out that it's not going to be!

• I have to decide whether I should drop Volleyball because I don't know when I can do the outside practicing and I don't want to lie about it.

• My Developmental Psychology class is a service-learning class, so I need to do 2 hours of service-learning per week. I can either do Tuesday/Thursday 1-2 P.M. or Thursday 1-3 P.M. If I do Tuesday, my Tuesdays will be crazy filled because I have class from 9-11 A.M., service-learning from 1-2 P.M., lab TA from 3-6 P.M., and class from 6-8 P.M. But...I need Thursdays to grade lab notebooks!

• Not only is Dev. Psych a service-learning class, but it might be the hardest class I have this quarter. There's so much info and so many papers!

• Microbiology lab is going to be intense. Maybe not the actual lab, but the pre-lab reports, the materials sheet, and especially the lab report! 4-8 pages...and 4 pages will probably not be suffice for some labs. Ahh...this is crazier than General Biology lab!

I need to really focus and practice good time management this quarter. I might need to drop Volleyball, even though it looks like lots of fun. If I have too much on my plate, then I'll be stressed, my face will break out even more, I'll go to sleep late and wake up late so I'll miss my devotions, I'll be too frenzied that I won't be showing the character of Christ in my life, etc. However, this is good practice for next year, when I take on Nursing at Loma Linda. I want to do the accelerated track so I need to start time management and good study skills now!

Pacific Union ASI 2008 convention nears

"The Pacific Union ASI yearly meeting is scheduled for April 24-27 at the Pacific Palms Resort in Industry Hills, CA. The meeting starts Thursday evening and runs through Sunday morning. Featured speakers include Mike Ryan, General Vice President of SDA, Don Mackintosh, Director of Amazing Facts College of evangelism, and a dynamic youth group called "Finish the Work". There will be testimonies of ASI members and lots of fellowship, music and good food. See Download section of this website for applications for attendance and for booth rental."
via (ASI Pacific Union)

re-blogging

Ever since I've found the way to reblog on my Tumblr site, I've been reblogging non-stop. That just goes to show you how bright and creative I can be.