sad

Right now, I want to be a robot. I don't want to have any feelings. I have way too much hope and I care way too much and it's hurting me. I care about him, about what he's doing, if he's moved on, etc. It hurts my heart because I know that it was my fault. He gave me so many chances and I blew it. And now I won't ever get a chance to try to make it work. My heart hurts so much. I just want all my feelings to be taken out.